Vaginal Realm

Maybe our universe is a toy in the form of a shiny marble played upon by one superior being, the creator (or buyer of the toy) to whom we all owe the spinning of the earth. What if this being created a master list of possible things a human can do, categorized into physical, emotional, mental, and social groups? How do you think you would fare?

Of course, there really is no list of what humans can do but rather what he should not do. Human flight is in no way possible and yet nobody bothered to write this down among other absurd things; facts like these are ever present in the quiet little corner of our minds. Of the list of deeds man can do, which do you think are the ones that really worth commending (positively or otherwise), and how many boxes can you tick?

Let's start with the basics. If I am to consult the 10 commandments in the Old Testament, probably the only sins I have not committed are killing another human being and sleeping with a married man. However, we cannot omit the fact that the bible is written by man during the time of Constantine who is known to be a pagan emperor of his time. What it boils down into is, who really is the authority of delineating good and bad? And who says this person is THE person? Simple. One's own self. We are the masters of our own domain, and we have free will to use in pinpointing apples from oranges. At my age of 23, barely a full-fledged adult, I can assume that I have endured quite a lot compared to other people in my society.

On Familial Grounds
I am born to a typical Adams Family-ish set-up. A band of freaks, each being the center of a comical episode of everlasting mortification. As the youngest of 4 from a conservative line, and being a female at that, I was subject to the tighest of constraints which almost all the time contradicts with my free spirit. This often leads to a slap (doesn't matter where or from whom) or a yanking of the hair or being grounded among other things. My fire seldom manifests into a flame, but when it does it even surprises myself by the things that I can say when my rage of reasoning overwhelms my respect to elders that is from my being Filipino. I have mastered The Idiot's Guide to Excuses to enjoy the world outside. Also the art of climbing 10-feet spiked fences and sneaking-in-and-out-ala-ninja. Even running away.

Heartstrings
My roster of lovers is modest but not really reserved. I have my fair share of wonderful loves and silly flings that equally give me a smirk and a grimace that concludes I have so far a healthy lovelife. Men of astounding strengths and incomprehensible shortcomings have touched my life and I say my patient nature allowed me to observe and remember well the effects of male hormones of their manliness. I endured queen-like treatments and scandalous embarrassments; hitting and being hit; cheating and being cheated upon. Loved, laid, and lied. As it is for love, what goes around comes around.

On Friendships
I have always believed that I am blessed with the best friends there ever were. People have come and go into my social circle, with those worth treasuring being left behind for safekeeping. My friends' personalities range from artists to analysts, from princes to paupers, from pleasant to obnoxious. Strong bonds need serious investments of time and effort, thus I often do things with these friends to strengthen further our camaraderie. With each new experience comes wisdom of the lessons in life that I cannot possibly assimilate without their presence. With each friend I have experienced pieces of life, be it in a form of a novena booklet or a roll of joint.

And to myself, who I inconceivably love, pushing to the limit of physical and mental human prowess. Of intaking all those that construct, improve, repair and destroy. Of absorbing all the wisps of Gea and much more. I can't say there is anything right now that I regret doing/not doing. To him who got away, to her who shut her eyes, to them who look low...I really don't care. I love my life. I may not have it all, but hey, I'm happy with everything I got. For I possess many things that I have yet to show the world.

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