Vaginal Realm

I'm wearing a pink shirt. - yeah, pink is good.
I have not a tinge of regret na sumama ako - and I wonder why...
Time? Kung gusto, may paraan. Kung ayaw, maraming dahilan - heyyyy that's my line!
Mahilig ka sa maanghang? Pareho tayo - oh really now.
The ultimate goal is not to be the best but to put a smile on the face, imo - exactly. =)
Pag napangiti kita, ok na ko - wushuuuuu spare me the mush
Ako rin, ang babaw ko sobra - lots of similarities eh?
I kept some sparklers because I felt something good to celebrate is about to come - riiiiiiight.

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I have a surprise for you. I'm doing something I haven't done for ages. The sunset with you woke up something dormant in me.

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Oh dear.

Labels: dialogues, mush

Once told a friend that the best time to be logical in choosing a partner is at the start of everything, mayhap after the first date or the bloom of a deceiving friendship.

True, true. But why do I find it difficult to think now? Why do I say so? Because I have to have to look pretty tomorrow. I don't know if it's for the right reason, also why I'm like this in the first place. Not good.

I won't jump into conclusions nor make conceited assumptions. No, not this time.

Labels: mush, nonsense

Guess I'm not evil enough. Muhahaha!!!

You Are 74% Evil

You are very evil. And you're too evil to care.Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot.

Labels: quizzicles

I'm going home. My Monday has ended at last. Off to Tuesday...

Labels: daily mishaps, nonsense

Yung ibang tao, naiinggit. Wala kasing nagmamahal sa kanila. Yung iba naman, tatanga-tanga! Minamahal na nga nang todo, binabalewala lang! Alam mo, swerte ka sana kaso tatanga-tanga lang!

Minsan na kong nagmahal, minsan na kong naloko. Minsan na nga lang, naagaw pa! Pero di bale! Mas bagay naman sila, eh. Isang basura, isang basurera. Perfect match, diba?

Nung iniwan mo ko, ikaw ang sinisi ko kung bakit ako lubos na nasaktan. Mahal kasi kita pero di mo ko maintindihan. Ngayon salamat, ha? Kasi kung di mo ko iniwan, hindi ko siya matatagpuan.

Sometimes you tend to be in despair when your loved one doesn't love you back. But don't worry, don't cry much. Just close your eyes and whisper, "Mahal din ako nun. Pakipot lang."

When you ran, I chased you. You told me to stop following you. When I stopped, you got mad! Aminin mo na. In love ka rin sa kin, no?

If you ever find someone better, funnier or nicer than me, go ahead, hindi kita pipigilan. Pero pag iniwan ka ng gagong yun, tingin ka lang sa likod mo. Nandun ako, nang-aasar sayo, "Better than me pala, ha?"

Lagi ka na lang may rason. Nakalimutan mong tumawag, nakalimutan mong magtext, nakalimutan mong magpaalam. Pero ingat ka, ha? Baka pag naalala mong mahal mo ko, nakalimutan na kita.

Pag nakita mo na masaya ang mahal mo sa piling ng iba, wag kang malungkot o umiyak. Isipin mo na lang na masaya siya dahil mukhang clown ang kasama niya.

If I see you flirting with others, I won't cry. Instead I'll stand infront of you, chin up, stomach in, chest out at sabay sabi, "Masmasarap akong magmahal diyan. Sana wag mong pagsisihan!"

Kapag ikaw ang iniyakan ng lalaki, ang swerte mo dahil mahal ka nga niya! Pero pag ikaw ang umiyak dahil lang sa kanya, di ka lang malas, tanga ka pa! Lalaki lang yan, pwede ba?

Minsan lang magmahal ang pusong tanga. Niloko pa! Subukan kaya niya ang magmahal at lokohin din siya? Nang masabi niyang,"GOSH! Masakit pala!"

Nagkita kami ng ex ko kanina. Nalaman niyang tayo na. Pinagmasdan niya ko at bigla siyang tumawa. Sabay sabi, "Pang-ilan sya? Ako kasi yung una!" Sagot ko, "Una ka nga, sya naman ang last!"

When you love, don't give your 100%. Leave at least 70% for yourself so if ever he'll hurt you, you could still stand up to him and say, "Wala na bang mas sasakit pa diyan? Sus, walang kwenta!"

If someone leaves you, don't dare cry. Just smile and be happy. Pero bago mo siya tuluyang palayain, ibulong mo to sa kanya, "Maganda ako. Pasalamat ka pinatulan kita!"

Before, hinahabol kita pero di mo ako pinapansin. Tapos isang araw nawala ako, hinanap mo ako at tinanong, "Bakit ka nagsawa?" Ngumiti ako, "Hindi ako nagsawa. Natauhan lang."

Pwede mo kong lokohin pero wag kang magpapahuli sakin. Pwede mo kong palitan pero siguraduhin mong mas mahal mo siya sakin. Pwede mo kong iwan pero siguraduhin mong kaya mo. Kasi pag ako sobrang nasaktan, wala kanang babalikan.

Boys? Pag trip ka, magpapakilala. Kaibigan kuno hanggang pumorma na. Tapos pag nahulog ka na, ayun, goodbye na dahil sawa na sila. Pero dapat walang iiyak ha dahil ... anong silbi ng karma?

I fell in love and got hurt but I didn't shed too much tears nor did I ask him to love me again. Instead, I stood up proudly and said, "Ganyan talaga ang magaganda! Hindi bagay sa tanga!"

Simple lang para hindi ka masaktan. Kapag minahal ka, mahalin mo din. Kapag ginago ka, gaguhin mo rin. Pero kapag umiyak ka, tanga ka! Ginago ka na nga, iiyakan mo pa?

Labels: mush

Maybe our universe is a toy in the form of a shiny marble played upon by one superior being, the creator (or buyer of the toy) to whom we all owe the spinning of the earth. What if this being created a master list of possible things a human can do, categorized into physical, emotional, mental, and social groups? How do you think you would fare?

Of course, there really is no list of what humans can do but rather what he should not do. Human flight is in no way possible and yet nobody bothered to write this down among other absurd things; facts like these are ever present in the quiet little corner of our minds. Of the list of deeds man can do, which do you think are the ones that really worth commending (positively or otherwise), and how many boxes can you tick?

Let's start with the basics. If I am to consult the 10 commandments in the Old Testament, probably the only sins I have not committed are killing another human being and sleeping with a married man. However, we cannot omit the fact that the bible is written by man during the time of Constantine who is known to be a pagan emperor of his time. What it boils down into is, who really is the authority of delineating good and bad? And who says this person is THE person? Simple. One's own self. We are the masters of our own domain, and we have free will to use in pinpointing apples from oranges. At my age of 23, barely a full-fledged adult, I can assume that I have endured quite a lot compared to other people in my society.

On Familial Grounds
I am born to a typical Adams Family-ish set-up. A band of freaks, each being the center of a comical episode of everlasting mortification. As the youngest of 4 from a conservative line, and being a female at that, I was subject to the tighest of constraints which almost all the time contradicts with my free spirit. This often leads to a slap (doesn't matter where or from whom) or a yanking of the hair or being grounded among other things. My fire seldom manifests into a flame, but when it does it even surprises myself by the things that I can say when my rage of reasoning overwhelms my respect to elders that is from my being Filipino. I have mastered The Idiot's Guide to Excuses to enjoy the world outside. Also the art of climbing 10-feet spiked fences and sneaking-in-and-out-ala-ninja. Even running away.

Heartstrings
My roster of lovers is modest but not really reserved. I have my fair share of wonderful loves and silly flings that equally give me a smirk and a grimace that concludes I have so far a healthy lovelife. Men of astounding strengths and incomprehensible shortcomings have touched my life and I say my patient nature allowed me to observe and remember well the effects of male hormones of their manliness. I endured queen-like treatments and scandalous embarrassments; hitting and being hit; cheating and being cheated upon. Loved, laid, and lied. As it is for love, what goes around comes around.

On Friendships
I have always believed that I am blessed with the best friends there ever were. People have come and go into my social circle, with those worth treasuring being left behind for safekeeping. My friends' personalities range from artists to analysts, from princes to paupers, from pleasant to obnoxious. Strong bonds need serious investments of time and effort, thus I often do things with these friends to strengthen further our camaraderie. With each new experience comes wisdom of the lessons in life that I cannot possibly assimilate without their presence. With each friend I have experienced pieces of life, be it in a form of a novena booklet or a roll of joint.

And to myself, who I inconceivably love, pushing to the limit of physical and mental human prowess. Of intaking all those that construct, improve, repair and destroy. Of absorbing all the wisps of Gea and much more. I can't say there is anything right now that I regret doing/not doing. To him who got away, to her who shut her eyes, to them who look low...I really don't care. I love my life. I may not have it all, but hey, I'm happy with everything I got. For I possess many things that I have yet to show the world.

Labels: random ramblings

I'm now again the person that I once was. The epitome of equilibrium between introvertiveness and independence.

Doing things by myself and asking for assistance only when my limited capabilities and unlimited pride can no longer solve problems in themselves.

One thing that goes unappreciated: concern. "I am one person, and I only worry me about myself. And so should you about me."

Starting to hate the concept of being committed, if it only goes down to throwing away things that make me happy. I'd rather be single socially, emotionally, even economically.

The dog in me has resurfaced once again: God invented the world in black and white, while man gave it hues and shapes. And I only see two colors. Go figure.

My mind is clear. It's all I need to keep running my beautiful life. This and a joint.

Labels: nonsense

Happy Valentines! *vomit*

Ok, now it's Dang's turn to be engaged. Zito proposed while on their 4-day Boracay holiday last weekend. Just when things were getting mushy with Zito kneeling, Dang flipping out, and both of them in tears, the waitress enters the scene and hands the toothpick as ordered earlier. Hah, talk about a thorn in the neck.

What's with the year 2006 that makes all people pop the life-shortening question? Zito once said that during the new year as 2006 stepped in, he knew that this is the year he will ask her to be his wife. Well, duh, it's about time! They've been together for 10 years for crying out loud. All the money they spent in motels to make out is enough to buy them a house of their own.

And, of course, the most inevitable question was asked to me when the news spread to our circle: "Ikaw? Kelan ka?"


The person who asked me this question died and will be the benefactor of all post-valentine flowers given today to her family and friends. May she rest in pieces.

Labels: daily mishaps, nonsense

Naks, pa-YM YM na lang tayo ah.
You don't call me anymore e.
Busy ka di ba?
Yeah I was. So kamusta kayo ng mga dine-date mo?
Alin? Marami sila e.
Yabang. Kala ko ba nagtitipid ka?
Joke lang. Wala nga e.

Did I miss you? Felt like I didn't. And I wonder why.

Labels: dialogues

This is actually going to be a first of many sequels to my post Food Glorious Food, so I've decided to make it a series. I can talk about food forever, anyway (see love handles for proof).

Today, being the snotty kid that I am right now, I wanna talk about comfort food. Comfort food makes us feel warm and fuzzy -- it fills the stomach and soothes the soul. Usually I crave for my comfort food when I'm sick, tired of eating MSG-packed entrees from fancy restaurants (common to city dwellers like me), or just feeling low in spirit.

Without further adue, here is my personal list of edible ways of coping with stress:

• Lugaw (Rice Porridge) - hands down, no contest. The simplicity of this dish is perfect for cramped minds longing to be relaxed. No complications. Just sticky rice and water and a bit of spice, and voila! Instant comfort food, without the guilt too.
• Ligo spicy sardines in tomato sauce - this goes well for my palate when I have just continuously dined out for lunch and/or dinner. I prefer to eat this sauteed with a bit of garlic and onion, and served with fried rice. Gives a break to my wallet too, since it costs only about, uh, P13 pesos per can (I think).
• Chicken sopas - literally the local version of chicken soup. I prefer eating hot soupy dishes anytime, and nothing beats a home-made sopa to satisfy my cravings. Good for inducing perspiration, too, for times when I have to sweat my fever out.
• Cup Noodles - having mentioned my preference for soups or broth-based food, cup noodles definitely go in the list. These were my favorite breakfast before heading out for school back in California, and my aunt and I would have a relentless debate whether to just pour hot water or place it in the microwave. Hey, I'm just following instructions. Cup noodles then tasted better than those easily accessible now, but what the heck, I'm still a sucker for it. My ideal comfor food in the office when served lunch is not that appealing.
• Fresh vegetable salad with vinaigrette dressing - works after I go on an unhealthy eating binge. Sort of like a general cleaning when dust and other particles have started to take its toll. I go on a salad marathon for a few days every now and then.

*ACHOO!*

Now, if you would excuse me while I heat up a mushroom soup casserole in the stove.

Labels: food bits

Been sick since last night. First I got the chills late yesterday afternoon, the sore throat and colds by dinnertime, and then the fever by midnight. It sucks when I go down with a flu. Good thing it happens to me only once a year, or twice if I really live a slobbish lifestyle. Which is what I did for the last two months or so, that's why I gained a lot of weight and lost cardiac endurance among other healthy things.

I can't remember when was the exact last time I was bedridden with sickness. The last might have been just a couple of months ago since I recall bringing with me lots of Tempra 500 from Bulacan to Makati. Yep, my downtime for 2005. Seems odd, by the way, that I only get sick whenever I come home [to Bulacan]. I guess I'm no longer used to home-style cooking and fresh air.

Already downed 6 tables of tempra today, and I'm about to take 2 more in a couple of minutes. Hafta be back in shape by tomorrow, though. Got a hectic week ahead. Hectic and very toxic.

And oh, got sick coz I worked out in the gym last Saturday. And I did that coz I'm too out of shape to play tennis. And I just didn't feel like swimming.

Labels: daily mishaps

I lost my cool earlier today coz a certain someone plucked the wrong chord. And it was very immature of me. I'm not even sure if being human is a valid excuse, but nonetheless I'd like to say sorry for my behavior. No, nobody is in no way permitted to act like I did. Period.

FYI, I was never neutral. - I know, dude. I know.
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My entry below seems odd to me now that I'm reading it. Gee, I sounded high, though I wasn't. I don't know why I even put it here, considering that we have talked about this mushy stuff over and over again, that sometimes all we need is look at each other and we'd know what we want to say. That's knowing each other too much, I guess.
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The Adams Family is having another episode again. Argh, if only I could get somewhere far far away in a blink of an eye, I'd be everywhere but here.
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Holy motherfucker. All I did is whine and complain. Obviously I'm still in a very bad mood. >:( *sigh* I need to see other people. Other other people.

If I am to become something else, I'd like to be the moon.

Labels: daily mishaps, random ramblings

As I mentioned, here's for you. Pasintabi sa banda, pahiram muna ng kaunting linya.

Binigay na ang lahat pero di pa rin masaya
Oo, dito natapos ang ilang buwan mong pagkukunwari, pati na ang aking pangangapa sa dilim. Nagkamulatan ng mga mata, at kahit ang mga taong di natin sinasadyang maapektuhan, nadamay sa gulo. Alam mong binigay ko sa yo lahat, pero sadyang hindi ako. Hindi ako.

Pagkatapos ng nangyari at lahat ng nasabi, gusto mo pa rin ba sa akin?
Matagal na panahon bago naghilom ang sugat ko. Nagpunta ko ng ibang bayan para linisin ang aking isip pati na rin ang ibang sakit ng katawan. Pero nang mapag-usapan, at magkaliwanagan, di ko pinagsisisihan ang mga nangyari. Ewan ko ba, siguro nga talagang minahal kita ng totoo kaya di ko magawang magalit sa yo noon. Tinandaan ko na lang ang mga aral na dulot ng mga pangyayari; siguro nga, yun ang dahilan kung bakit pinagtagpo tayo ng Diyos. Para turuan ako ng leksyon.

Di naman bawal gumiling sa 'king piling
Magkaibigan tayo, pero sadyang may mga bagay na di natin matanggal sa ating mga sarili lalo na't pag magkasama tayo. Pero sa kabila ng lahat, malinaw ang lahat. Magkaibigan tayo. Ngayon at bukas. Lalo na ngayon, may pamilya ka na. Masaya ko para sa 'yo, alam mo yan.

Ikaw ang aking forever kahit tayo ay hindi together
Ako: Buti ka pa hindi mo ko iniiwan.
Ikaw: Oo naman. Kahit anong mangyari, tayo pa rin. Pagtanda natin, sama mo mga chikiting mo, kasama ko mga chikiting ko. Magkakalaro sila. Samantalang tayo, tuloy pa rin tayong mag-uusap tungkol sa mga bagay bagay sa buhay natin.
Ako: Salamat.
Sa mga saya at pighati sa buhay ko, nandyan ka. Nagkamali na ako minsan nang talikuran kita, pero sa kabila ng lahat di mo pa rin ako iniwan. Lagi kang andyan, na kahit kaarawan mo pupuntahan mo ko para damayan kasi iniwan ako ng boypren ko. Tsaka pag may bagong pangyayari sa buhay mo, andito ka para sabihan ako na tila bahagi pa rin ako ng mundo mo. Palagi nang makadugtong ang mga buhay natin, forever.

Sorry if i wasn't able to show up lately. I was very busy with work. Hopefully one of these days I can drop by and send my regards to the family. And, no, I won't show up with a gift for your baby boy. Pakita mo muna sa 'ken si Adi. Don't do anything stupid, ayt? Stay out of trouble. Nyehehe. :P

Labels: random ramblings

I admire Dino's talent in songwriting: he has a pen anywhere he goes. No paper. If he needs to jot down something, he'll manage whether with a tissue paper or a 7-11 receipt.

BMR has been around for quite sometime. I remember watching their indie gigs (usually at Xaymaca) every Friday as early as 2001. The guys deserve that break. They got talent. And speaking as someone who's quite familiar with each member (one of them being my ex *tee hee*), I can attest that they still have their feet on the ground despite all the success. Naks, hoy Ken libre mo ko dahil sa praises na 'to!

Most tracks on their latest album Steady Lang are compositions from way back to the late 90's. My most favorite? Ikaw Forever. Giling, Dino, giling! Haha. And to quote a line from Dahan Dahan, "maraming nagmamarunong, wala namang marunong magtanong".

Ikaw ang aking forever kahit tayo ay hindi together.


Geez, I sound like a groupie. I better shut my pie hole now.

Labels: nonsense

Ok. The chest pains are getting worse by the day. Now I feel like an invisible iron clamp found its way to my heart through my left tit and made a bitter pinch.

At least it wasn't as bad as the last time, when my eyes went a-rolling and my left arm feeling funny. That was working overtime for days straight with a double cheeseburger diet. Now I'm eating healthier. Eating as much, just healthier nutritional values. :)

*heave*

This is bad. I'm gonna go home now.

Labels: daily mishaps

I'm in a terribly bad mood today. Earlier I was acting like the resident bitch of ePLDT-dom again when talking to Raul.

"Didn't you know that we have a deadline since Friday? I can't compromise my deadline because of your [company's] inefficiency...di ko na na-meet deadline ko kakahintay sa inyo...you always have excuses. Reprimand that person in charge of PPE and inventories...send me what you have now and just give me a recon of your tentative and your final...I can't accept adjustments more than P1 million."

*click*

*yawn*

Heh. They complain about lack of personnel. Try switching positions with me, and see what it's like to be understaffed. You cannot complain of lags to me due to undermanning. I won't buy it. Fuckity fuck. I'm the epitomy of a "one-man team". You're just being inefficient, and stupid to assume that I'm stupid. Grrr ang tatanga nyo! Thank God I wasn't assigned there, or else I'll fire every one of you.

Bwiset. Aargh!

Labels: daily mishaps, gripe

"Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing. So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day."



I bet a dinosaur wrote these lines. Most likely.

Labels: mush

Must be the cutest form of sin there is.

"Being the lazy Panda that he is Tare Panda doesn't get around using his feet. Instead, he prefers to roll from here to there."

Read more about this sloth here.

"Because I like it." <- prolly the best excuse there ever was. You can't possibly argue with this kind of reasoning.

"It gets very, very tiring." <- Yeah, I know what you mean. Pffft.

Labels: nonsense

I love having lunch at pancake house. It's one of those few places where I can enjoy a sumptuous lunch while reading the daily paper, albeit crowded at peak dining hours. Give me a quaint spot, a cup of tea and The Inquirer to enjoy after lunch and I'm happy as a clam. Not to mention a light price tag -- well, light enough for outside dining.

Resto hopping has become an adventure for me. Scouring the city for newly opened dining spots always have me rubbing my hands together in anticipation. No, not just the fancy glitzy type; as long as the food is great and the place (and the utensils, too) is clean, expect me to be the first in line.

Now, I've been to many eat-outs but I'd like to recap my favorite spots in case I get into one of those dilemmas of itching to gobble good food but don't know where to go. Those places called "kahit saan" or "ikaw bahala" are the worst suggestions for a hungry person.

These are my pocket-friendly hole-in-the-walls:

• Sinangagan - just a little off of McArthur Highway in Lolomboy, Bocaue. Their bulalo in unrivalled, IMHO. Servings come in medium and large sizes. When they say medium-sized is good for 2, they really mean good for 4. One medium-sized serving of bulalo: P180
• Almerz - a house converted into a lowly sizzling house near UST dapitan side. Serves the best effing sisig on that side of the metropolis. And with their bottomless gravy policy, who could argue? Sisig with rice (good for one): P50
• Mang Jimmy's - in UP. Used to have bogus combos that made us coming back in the first place: 2+1, 4+2. And eat all you kanin. Also serves yummy sisig topped with mayonnaise. One sizzling plate of sisig = P100 (relatively cheap since it's bottomless rice and proportions are meant for sharing)
• Wai Ying - in Salazar St., Binondo. Serves wicked chinese food since, well, it's in Binondo and owned by chinese. An order of steamed tofu is P40, chao fan is P35, and a noodle soup bowl of roast duck is, can you believe, P75? Try ordering the same at Oody's and they'll charge you P210 plus VAT plus service charge, and it's not even half as good as Wai Ying's.
• Buddy's - almost every office in Makati knows about Buddy's, what with their bilaos of pancit being the main order for office gatherings. I'm not a pancit person, though, so I dig their moist sisig and creamy leche flan. Half order of sisig plus rice (good for one): P90
• S.R. Thai Cuisine - with 2 branches near UST. Why do I love it? Rice + meat + whole chili STRIPS + some weird thai sauce + chili sauce = happy me. :) One order of chili pork/beef rice = P65
• Lugawan sa Pasong Tamo - open 24 hours. Serves delicious lugaw (rice porridge) for P6 per bowl. I have no interest knowing what they put in there and what makes it yellow. Eating with you are the tricycle and jeepney drivers and other members of the DEF classes. Haven't gotten a case of LBM or amoebiasis after eating there, so I guess the food's pretty safe. Lugaw is one of my comfort foods, and it's a good choice of grub after a night-long drinking spree.

So there. Hopefully I'll have time to make sequels to this entry. Haha, what can I say? I love food. ^_^

Labels: food bits

He hates me.

He loves me.

HA! LIKE I GIVE A FLYING FUCK.

*note to self: i gotta go easy on the cussing.*

If you can almost strangle me, then I can definitely shoot you in the head first. War of the roses? Bring it on you mofo! I've encountered the worst of your kind. You don't scare me shitless.


And as for you...

My, my...melting aren't we? Oh no you gotta stop...words like "ikaw lang ang pwedeng kong pagbuhusan ng sama ng loob" or even using the word "tayo" and "natin" have psychological effects on me. Don't evolve your world around me just yet; or else the heart of one of us will be sent west.

I AM THE QUEEN OF MY DOMAIN. I AM NOBODY'S MISTRESS.

Labels: gripe

Him: Just came from the cafe, trying to blog about it, but couldn't. Yeah, I'd like to know.
Me: Was waiting for you to ask. Were you expecting ME to open the floor for discussion?
Him: Not at all. But my mind set a while ago was to have fun just talking that it slipped til it was time to go.
Me: Ok. Ask me.
Him: What are your thoughts about 'us'?
Me: It's not 'us'. It's you and me. As it should be. I'm sorry if I cause you any discomfort....
.......there. I finally said it. I thought I already made my point clear through my thread.
Him: Uhm, ok. It is rejection right?
Me: Yes. As much as I hate that word, I guess it is. You can shoot me if you want. I deserve no less than pillage for making you go through this.
Him: Hm, just like to know again why? If it's ok.
Me: Ok. I think I can be more objective between the two of us since I'm not clouded by emotions. I don't think we are pieces of the same puzzle. Yes we could bend to be able to live with each other, but it'll take us too much effor that it'll exhaust us even before we can make it run smooth. Simply put, I don't think we can make each other happy.
Me: I mean, have you already figured out why you fell for me in the first place. You barely know me. And the things that you already know, they are enough to drive you away. I'll always be like this, and you like that.
Him: Er, don't assume I am emotional right now. Remember, I am not simple. What you saw before was just a part of me. Now that I know you a bit better, am I not validating what I feel? What's your proof that it won't work? That is an assumption itself. Heck, all four of your reasons are assumptions.
Me: Assumptions they may be, but really there are no solid facts when it comes to this. 'tis that unexplainable feeling, you know? When you look into someone's eyes. Truth is, I hate myself right now for not being able to reciprocate. And you're one of those that I don't want to tear to pieces. I have crushed men before you came, intentionally. But not you. And that's why I feel so guilty. I'm sorry but I just can't seem to make it work for me. If I push this through, it'll be unfair for you. And for you, I don't think it'll all be worth it.
Him: You can't tear me to pieces Ellen. I am way better than that. At least right now I am. And still believe you're better than all that fear you have.

Labels: dialogues, mush