Vaginal Realm

This is supposed to be my thoughts about this post. Obviously (but not at all surprisingly) I'm still depressed about this topic. So I'd like to borrow a few lines from Chester's farewell letter to our barkada given the day before he left for New York. Chuva, I miss you...

(Certain portions of this letter were omitted for relevance)

This is it, our parting of ways. Sabi ko na dati pa, it was just a matter of time, and a matter of who would be doing it first. Of course, marami nang nauna, and I thought it shouldn’t be too hard to follow their lead pag turn ko nang umalis. So imagine my surprise upon realizing finally how difficult it was saying goodbye. Iba pala pag andun ka na sa sitwasyon na wala nang atrasan. Slowly but surely, dreadful anticipation seeps in, at bigla ka na lang magugulat na napapadalas ang pag reminisce mo ng mga bagay na ilang beses mo nang nabalikan. Wala ka nang magawang trabaho kasi alam mong in a matter of days, work will never be the same again. Of course we say that the friendship will never be lost, that we’ll always be here no matter what, and that everyone will just be an e-mail away…etc, etc. I’m not too worried sa ganyan kasi I’m sure most of them will be true. But I guess iba pa rin kung andiyan kayo, if everyone’s just on the floor above me, doing their own stuff, naglalandian, nagmamaganda, nagkukunwaring magtrabaho. Kasi naman, pano at kanino ko ikukwento ang araw ko, pag nang aaway na ko ng cliente, pag napagalitan ako ng manager ko, at kung pano ko siya sinagot, pag meron na kong bagong “breakfast”, at may nadagdag na ring “lunch” at “dinner”, sino kasama ko kumain…?! Grabe, so many things going on in my mind right now. But before I allow them to wash over me, I just wanted to give everyone one final shout-out before I finally say goodbye to the best group of people this firm has ever seen…

I guess that’s it. Not much to scroll down to. The end of this e-mail message…and I guess, in so many ways, the end of this chapter in my life. A new one is about to start. Where it’ll take me…I have no idea. But honestly, nothing gives me more courage than the thought that I will always have those memories, our memories, to keep me going. Hindi niyo alam kung gaano kayo naging kalaking bahagi ng buhay ko.

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