Mirror: Stupidity
Him: Just came from the cafe, trying to blog about it, but couldn't. Yeah, I'd like to know.
Me: Was waiting for you to ask. Were you expecting ME to open the floor for discussion?
Him: Not at all. But my mind set a while ago was to have fun just talking that it slipped til it was time to go.
Me: Ok. Ask me.
Him: What are your thoughts about 'us'?
Me: It's not 'us'. It's you and me. As it should be. I'm sorry if I cause you any discomfort....
.......there. I finally said it. I thought I already made my point clear through my thread.
Him: Uhm, ok. It is rejection right?
Me: Yes. As much as I hate that word, I guess it is. You can shoot me if you want. I deserve no less than pillage for making you go through this.
Him: Hm, just like to know again why? If it's ok.
Me: Ok. I think I can be more objective between the two of us since I'm not clouded by emotions. I don't think we are pieces of the same puzzle. Yes we could bend to be able to live with each other, but it'll take us too much effor that it'll exhaust us even before we can make it run smooth. Simply put, I don't think we can make each other happy.
Me: I mean, have you already figured out why you fell for me in the first place. You barely know me. And the things that you already know, they are enough to drive you away. I'll always be like this, and you like that.
Him: Er, don't assume I am emotional right now. Remember, I am not simple. What you saw before was just a part of me. Now that I know you a bit better, am I not validating what I feel? What's your proof that it won't work? That is an assumption itself. Heck, all four of your reasons are assumptions.
Me: Assumptions they may be, but really there are no solid facts when it comes to this. 'tis that unexplainable feeling, you know? When you look into someone's eyes. Truth is, I hate myself right now for not being able to reciprocate. And you're one of those that I don't want to tear to pieces. I have crushed men before you came, intentionally. But not you. And that's why I feel so guilty. I'm sorry but I just can't seem to make it work for me. If I push this through, it'll be unfair for you. And for you, I don't think it'll all be worth it.
Him: You can't tear me to pieces Ellen. I am way better than that. At least right now I am. And still believe you're better than all that fear you have.
Me: Was waiting for you to ask. Were you expecting ME to open the floor for discussion?
Him: Not at all. But my mind set a while ago was to have fun just talking that it slipped til it was time to go.
Me: Ok. Ask me.
Him: What are your thoughts about 'us'?
Me: It's not 'us'. It's you and me. As it should be. I'm sorry if I cause you any discomfort....
.......there. I finally said it. I thought I already made my point clear through my thread.
Him: Uhm, ok. It is rejection right?
Me: Yes. As much as I hate that word, I guess it is. You can shoot me if you want. I deserve no less than pillage for making you go through this.
Him: Hm, just like to know again why? If it's ok.
Me: Ok. I think I can be more objective between the two of us since I'm not clouded by emotions. I don't think we are pieces of the same puzzle. Yes we could bend to be able to live with each other, but it'll take us too much effor that it'll exhaust us even before we can make it run smooth. Simply put, I don't think we can make each other happy.
Me: I mean, have you already figured out why you fell for me in the first place. You barely know me. And the things that you already know, they are enough to drive you away. I'll always be like this, and you like that.
Him: Er, don't assume I am emotional right now. Remember, I am not simple. What you saw before was just a part of me. Now that I know you a bit better, am I not validating what I feel? What's your proof that it won't work? That is an assumption itself. Heck, all four of your reasons are assumptions.
Me: Assumptions they may be, but really there are no solid facts when it comes to this. 'tis that unexplainable feeling, you know? When you look into someone's eyes. Truth is, I hate myself right now for not being able to reciprocate. And you're one of those that I don't want to tear to pieces. I have crushed men before you came, intentionally. But not you. And that's why I feel so guilty. I'm sorry but I just can't seem to make it work for me. If I push this through, it'll be unfair for you. And for you, I don't think it'll all be worth it.
Him: You can't tear me to pieces Ellen. I am way better than that. At least right now I am. And still believe you're better than all that fear you have.
posted by Aquabitch | | Permalink 
since you don't want that guy, cn i have him then?
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Anonymous |
2/05/2006 7:48 PM